Matthew Shepard’s Murder in Laramie, Wyoming
by guest contributor, Jess Fahlsing*
Whenever I go biking out east of Laramie, I send my mom that text.
Fortunately, it’s not uncommon for me to text her that. We have a pretty good relationship, so she doesn’t always know why I text her, “Love you.”
I do it after biking, because I remember Judy Shepard’s words, quoted by Rulon Stacey in a press release after Matthew Shepard died.
“Go home, give your kids a hug, and don’t let a day go by without telling them that you love them.”
I’ve flipped those words around so that, whenever I go biking into the land where Matthew was taken, beaten, and left to die tied to a fence, I text my mom and tell her I love her.
I can make it back home. Matt never can.
“Go home, give your kids a hug, and don’t let a day go by without telling them that you love them.”Judy Shepard
Growing Up in Rock Springs, Wyoming
I grew up in Rock Springs, Wyoming, mountain biking in the desert. It was a place where there was no visible queer community. No clubs at the high school. Very few queer role models out in the town. I did have a trans friend, but they faced extreme violence in that town.
I love the land there. My heart yearns to go back.
You can’t change who or what you love.
Yet there are some things you can’t make it back from. That you cannot return to.
I don’t know that I will return to Rock Springs to live long-term. But I do know that Laramie has given me a lot. Laramie PrideFest, founded by Robert West, gave me the space to find a queer community here after I started openly identifying as lesbian at age 21. It gave me the space to honor what activists before me have given up, and to remember Sylvia Rivera and Marsha P. Johnson, transwomen of color who were key in the Stonewall Riots.
. . . whenever I go biking into the land where Matthew was taken, beaten, and left to die tied to a fence, I text my mom and tell her I love her.Jess Fahlsing
Shepard Symposium on Social Justice
In Laramie, the Shepard Symposium on Social Justice [hosted by the University of Wyoming each year in April] gave me a family. They are my family. That is actually how Ellen and I met.
Through the Shepard Symposium, I had the honor to co-chair the Matthew Shepard Memorial Group with Dr. Emily Monago, Chief Officer of Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion. As part of the Memorial, we put banners for Matthew on the University Union.
“That wouldn’t have been possible even 10 years ago, when I was here for grad school,” a friend told me, who was visiting Laramie the same time as the Memorial.
[Rock Springs] was a place without a visible queer community. No clubs at the high school. Very few queer role models out in the town.
So there is good change. There is love. There is the text that I can keep sending my mom.
And she will send it back.
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• Attend the next Shepard Symposium on Social Justice April 10-13, 2019. All are welcome.
• Read about Judy and Dennis Shepard, parents I admire deeply in life.
• If you’re curious about the use of the singular personal pronoun “they,” take a look at this post: “Take Two: Why the Singular, Non-Binary ‘They’ Pronoun is Darned Difficult to Master.”
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* Jess Fahlsing is a senior at the University of Wyoming. They are dual majoring in Psychology and Gender and Women’s Studies with minors in Queer Studies, Honors, and Creative Writing. What’s important to know when reading this love letter is that 20 years ago Matthew Shepard was also a student at the University of Wyoming in Laramie when he was murdered in a hate crime for being gay.
I am privileged to know Jess and grateful for their contribution to this blog. I look forward to following their career which surely will expand social justice and human rights in ways that have yet to be revelaed. — Ellen